Monday 15 October 2012

I some how fell in love with you, now i wish i could say......

"you never forget your first true love. either the scars left behind stay there forever, or your heart never beats the same way again..."

You make me sick. love sick. If only you knew everytime i see you, i speechless. breathless. whenever i have the chance to see you, i take it in an instant.
If you only knew how often i thought of you, you'd be blown away. If you knew that i compare everyone i come across to you, you'd be blushing.
But if you knew how bad you hurt my heart, and how whenever i see you i just want to break down and cry, you would feel so guilty.
That someone so "special" to you has to feel this unbearable pain. Even worse, that you're the person causing it.
If you love someone you would be willing to give up everything for them, but if they loved you back, they'd never ask you to.
When it comes to wishes and dreaming i know what i want. But what if what i want, is something i can't have? I am 110% sure that i want you.
I want you in my life so bad. and you know why? Because you make me so happy. And when i met you i felt like i had known you forever and nothing else mattered.
But then you punched out of my life, like the end of a days work. I know i want you here next to me, but thats just not gonna happen.
So why wish and dream, if we know we're just wasting our time? You only find a few people in this world. A few people who will tell you they love you and mean it with all their heart.
Dont forget those people who stood by you through it all. The special few that were there for you til the end.

i wish that i could tell her how i feel. i wish i wouldn't worry about what everyone else thinks. i wish she would just love me back. and i wish the everything would have a happy ending....but everyone has a dream...right?
i don't know what i'm gonna do... i've spent days and nights without you... it hurts me so bad to know you're not there... but you know i love you and you don't even care... i wish i could get you to see how much.... how i love looking in your eyes, and your gentle touch... but i should move on.... i know, but i just can't seem to let go
tears running down my cheeks, this isn't the way it's supposed to be. you'd think by now i'd have realized, i shouldn't need you in my life. But i do, i want you so badly i can barely breath and that's what's hurting. That's what's killing me.
I'm not angry because we broke up, i'm sad because i can't let you go. I'm happy because of the memories we made, i'm sad because i can't stop reliving them in my mind. I'm not angry at you for not loving me, i'm angry with me for still loving you. I'm not angry that i lost you, i'm sad because i once had you. I'm not angry that i can't have you, i'm sad because i know what i'm missing. I'm not angry that you've moved on, i'm sad because i can't. I'm not angry that you won't come back, i'm sad because i keep hoping you will. I'm not angry because i hate you and don't want to....I'm sad because i miss you and i love you
forget her name, forget her face, forget her smile. her warm embrace. For her when they play our song. Forget you cried the whole night long. Forget how close you two once were. Remember, she has chosen him. Forget you memorized her walk, forget the way she used to talk. Forget the things she used to say, remember she has gone away. Forget her laugh, forget his grin, forget the dimples on her chin. Forget the way she held you tight, remember she's with him tonight. Forget the times that went so fast, forget the love that now has passed. Forget she said he's never leave you. Remember he will never be you
i miss the days you held me and the days i heard your voice. i miss the days you were here. Us falling apart was not my choice. i miss the days you kissed me and the feelings we used to show, but most of all, i miss the guy i used to know.
in what seemed like one split second, i lost what i held most dear to me... at the mere blink of an eye it was all gone... so i ran after you... and held on as tight as my tiny hand could grasp. Already weak from all the torment i could not allow myself to let go. Love that once shined so bright turned dark and angry... i loved you more than i ever dreamed of loving someone. You were the last star in my big lonely sky. My only dream ever come true....but now you were gonna end up like all the rest. I tried.... i tried so hard. But my love isn't enough anymore. I will never forget you. My last star has fallen....